Doing Unto Others

Let’s be honest.
I didn’t like her. Neither did she like me. It was chaos from the moment i tried to be friends with her. Somewhere somehow in her head, i became a threat to her friendship with TheDeathTrap. Flaming blog entries ensued just because i said i didn’t think i clicked with their circle. And like that, she became the crux of my relationship, and a tormentor in my life for the next 4 years or so. Mentally, she eroded my self esteem. And she gleefully rejoiced in it. And when i couldn’t take it anymore, i fought back with a secret of hers, and strangely, with one sentence, i seemed to be the bad guy in it all. But still, i apologised. And she fought back with an even nastier entry, which opened my eyes to the existence of a mean person like her.

And i find the hidden blog (which she thought i’d never find, naively), of the porn star and my picture she lifted, citing we were one and the same. I outted her action, and the post being public, i could’ve sued. But i didn’t. Not because i couldn’t, it’s because i just didn’t want to be embroiled in her silly antics anymore. But i never got any apology from her. Her ego, and mean spirit ness couldn’t allow her to do so. And later, when TheDeathTrap and i ended, she proclaimed ‘karma’ as my retribution. I was hurt, but i never thought much about it, because i prayed one day, she would know how it feels to be heartbroken. A few months later, her then boyfriend dumps her.

So let’s be honest. I knew her as a mean spirited person. She is not the ‘funloving’ ‘sweet’ ‘kind’ person as reports made her out to be.
Still, i know the way she went was tragic, but it wasn’t karma. If it were, then every single bitchy person would be dying horrible deaths by now. Which is alot.

All i can answer you is this, i feel sad for her family, but i also feel miffed (and borderline disgusted) at the reports, because she was no angel (to me), and of course, it weirds me out, that as much as i’ve not hated her for awhile, she was to me a tormentor in my life, and i’ll only remember her as that. And the only things that come out of my mouth about her, would be considered as bitching. Only now, a friend would remind me that she’s dead, and then i’d feel bad. And that’s my only gripe. I wished she was alive, just so i could bitch about her without feeling bad about it. And hey do not ostracize me, because like i said, i knew her as a mean person who couldn't be arsed about anyone else but herself.

That said, it is a point to note, to do unto others what you want others to do to you. Those who laughed when i was hurt and grieving over a heart break, I know for a fact, that scarily, the same had happened to them, in more or less the same manner, and they grieved as i had once grieved. Right Km? And now, they know. What goes around, really comes around. For her case, she knew too when her guy dumped her, but her death, it was just time. Just unfortunately, a bad one.

Which brings to mind, if TheDeathTrap died a terrible death, would i feel sad? I thought i wouldn’t. But if i could feel sad and be shocked for my nemesis, how would it go for him? And to attest to the entry title, he probably has it coming. To feel what he’d put me through.

Or maybe he already has, by being heartbroken by her death.
I feel sorry for those who knew her in a light different from mine, but that’s all i feel. Sorry.